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It’s been a while since everything.
My heart doesn’t ache when i hear your name.
It’s all different now.
I don’t miss you anymore.
I don’t want you anymore ; it’s all in the past.
I have realised there was never a US and that you were never mine.
It took about a few months and two mistakes to finally realise that you do not care.
It’s all different now.
It doesn’t matter if you miss me or not.

But this is my life when i am awake.
How do I control my mind and my dreams?
They show me you; make me feel your warmth.
It’s a difficult battle between reality and dream.
Everyday i go to sleep being in love with you and wake up being over you.
It’s strange , but it’s all different now.

My dreams and life are two parallel worlds.
They do not meet.
It’s a good thing that they don’t.
I don’t need you anymore.
I don’t want you anymore.
It’s all different now.
But sometimes I wonder when you sleep are you ever dreaming of me?

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